CHANGE

Summer is my favorite time of the year… I love feeling the heat of the HOT summer sun on my skin… it makes me feel alive… (Especially if I’m in my bikini lounging by the pool with a margarita next to me)… The last few weeks have been particularly challenging for me…. Emotionally mostly!!! But as they say, “What doesn’t kill you, will make you stronger” well, I’m feeling pretty strong these days… wink!


It feels as if I’m ready for a new beginning… a change, a HUGE one, I’m on the verge of making a life changing decision that will affect me and all those around me (in what I hope to be a positive way).

The definition of insanity is doing exactly the same thing and expecting different results; well I better start doing something different.

Step one: do something different

On father’s day I went out, unexpectedly, and bought a much needed new car, my old, however loyal Chrysler was 11 yrs. old. I expected this new, fast, beautiful machine would fill the incredible void I’m feeling inside of me, it hasn’t happen yet… I need more, I need to take a huge bite out of life to satisfy my emotional hunger, and I will. As scary as this might be, I refuse to sit on my laurels and wait for life to happen to me. I’m ready to go out and make it happen!. The glass is half full and I’m about the take a big gulp to satisfy my thirst!!! Life experiences have taught me that it is ALL in the attitude. 10% is what happens and 90% is how it gets handled. So, I’m keeping my attitude.

Step two: follow your dreams

What a rare yet simple concept… I forgot I had dreams. It has been so long since I had a dream or a wish I can’t remember, and then when the Cancer crap hit, shoot!!!! I didn’t think I had time!!!! The last six years of my life have been an incredibly scary rollercoaster. If I could, I would change a couple of things but for the most part, all the “downs” made all the “ups” worthwhile!!!

I FEEL ALIVE, with joy, pain, fear, sadness, and insecurities but alive nonetheless and that is not a bad thing!!!

TO BE CONTINUED…